Monday, January 07, 2008 ' ♥
the ended story; Monday, January 07, 2008
just feel like letting it out.... 2007 was a year full of REGRET for me... seriously... the year which changed me into a totally new person inside.... i've been telling ppl dat, "I'M OVER HIM ALREADY!" but the fact is dat... i haven't... i just can't get him out of my mind... he left me without a reason... and it really leaves a great impact in my life... after the break up... i really feel dat i'm at the lowest point of my life.... arrrggghhh! i hate this STUPID DAMN feeling..... "WHY? AM I NOT GOOD ENUFF FOR U? DID I TREATED U BADLY? DID I NEGLECT U WHEN U NID ME?" this same old qns keep playing in my mind... i'm willing to be with u due to the promise dat u made... u promise me not to repeat ur mistakes... take good care of me.... but in the end u left me.... is this how it shud end up? SACRIFICES after sacrifices.... i've been patient with u... eventhough u did something dat breaks my heart and lose the trust dat i gave u... i still go on... and just think positive... thinking dat u won't leave me... as i'm trying to be strong... someone told me dat they saw u with another girl... u seems to be very close with each other.... i just stood dere and listen... breakdown! i'm speechless.... i culdn't even concentrate on my prelim oral examinations... oh god! why do u have make me suffer this way? its too hard... i'm bleeding severely... tears accompanied me every night.... do u knoe dat i break sumone's heart just becoz i wanted to give a chance to u.... my MR.S... i'm so sorry... i made the wrong choice... u have to sacrifice ur love for me.... but now, i realised dat u're the one dat i love the most... i really do! i hope dat i still have the chance to make it up to euu..... as for MR.H.... the one dat i once trust and love with all my heart... i hope u wud amend ur ways... stop going around and play with ppl's heart.... if u're reading this.... " I SERIOUSLY HAVEN'T GET OVER U YET... HOW I FELT BOUT U STILL HAVEN'T CHANGE ABIT SINCE FIRST U STEP INTO MY LIFE.... "
